My bad

I think I just caused someone super dear to me sad... I am suppose to bring happiness and joy to her instead of making her feel 'tired of all this'... when you say 'tired of all this', what do you mean? I think my small little I don feel that I am important hurt quite a lot...

truth is i am feeling so miserable right now.. you ignoring me is not helping me.. along with all the things that is happening at home.. its not helping and i am starting to feel hopeless and lousy.. i guess you really don wan to talk to me at all.. am i really such a burden? should i have been stronger to hold back my emotions? should i have been stronger to contain all that emotions and pretend to be strong even in front of her?.. I know that if i din say those words yesterday and if i did not release all those emotions, things would have been better.. things wouldnt have happened and both of us wouldnt be like that.. i think we might even have met up for dinner today.. because she don wan to feel awkward, we are not facing it? because of this small matter(which i don know how it started? prob be due to my emotions and my words), we are forgetting our promise to hang in there with each other?

sometimes, i am not as strong as everyone thinks i am.. i am really very weak.. feeling tired and yet.. in front of everyone, i need to be a joker?.. who knows how bad i am feeling?... God does!!

what can i do to make her feel better and make her know that she is really impt to me? you are really really important to me beyond words can describe.. and I am really sorry for any thing wrong that i have done and make you felt...